C.A.N.C.E.L

Yeahhh..

Secara rasminya akak mengumumkan bahawa utk thn kedua berturut2 akak telah membatalkan sambutan hari jadi Afni.

Jgn kau tanya kenapa, hati ini telah luka..huhuhuh..

Eceh, bkanla apa sgt pun tapi disebabkan jadual keje hasben yg xmenentu,ditambah plak dgn terjadinya lg sekali campur tgn yg tidak diingini maka bila akak pikir2 balik ah baik ku kansel sajer..drpd pening2,drpd akak makan hati..huhu

Xbaik akak..pihak itu xberniat nak campur tgn,cuma memberi idea..tp entah knp akak xboleh terima idea beliau..

Yerp, cara kita mgkin berbeza..mgkin bg pihak sebelah sana mereka dah terbiasa dgn jamuan makan yg agak gah, secara besar2an, dgn makanan yg bermcam2, dari yg paling berat kpd yg paling ringan. Tp bg akak pulak, nope..I don't want that. I don't want my little jamuan to become like kenduri kawen or something like that. U got what I mean?

And its not that akak ni kedekut nk jamu org dgn kuih kering and kek saja, I have my own light n easy menu yg tetap mengenyangkan selain nasi berlauk in my head..senang nak masak and senang plak nk hidang..tp bila mengenangkan kot2 tetiba terpacul persoalan "eh,xde nasi ke?" Ahhh mamfusss..nasi haper org hidang kol 5 ptg ni? Ada ke org minum ptg makan nasi lauk. Again,u got what I mean? (Kan leceh nak masak nasi segala, lauk plak nak berjenis2, pastu xkena dgn time, kalu buat tghari or malam lainla..or kalau budget besar gile leh tempah caterer xpela..huhu)

So drpd serabut2 pikir, dgn akak yg xberapa ada kudrat nak menguruskan sengsorang ( en hasben sibuk keje dgn jadual xmenentu kdg2 weekends pun langgar) and budget pun xberapa besar (utk tempah caterer masak nasi lauk bla..bla..nak masak sendiri? Ayo..xsesueiii huhu) so baik akak kensel je. Senang. Padan muka semua org,huhuhu..(Sian Afni..)

Memula rasa frust jgk, tp bila pikir2 balik apala sgt jamuan harijadi tu. Dulu akak kecik2 xde pun mak abah akak buatkan majlis utk akak? Happy je akak hidup smpai besar? Huhu..so rasa calm balik. Lgpun Afni bukan paham sgt pun, bkn dia tau pun harijadi dia bila. And bkn dia pun yg mintak nak diraikan..

Cukupla nnt bday dia mama belikan kek and amik gambar kenang2an..dah nak masuk 3 thn anak mama..da mcm2 pandai dah..

Tahun dpn, kalau akak ada kudrat,kesempatan dan budget lebih,insyaAllah akak akan proceed jgk buat majlis. Yang penting, ikut sukahati akak punya pasal nk hidang menu apa and nk buat mcmana. Kalau ada cmpurtgn lagi, akak redah je. Masak je nasi seperiuk and lauk sejenis. Nak nasi sila pegi dapur. Haha, boleh gitu?

Aperrdaa..pasal NASI je akak da kensel plan akak ni. Xpela, xde rezeki Afni..

So calooo..

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true story behind the dilemma

Last Wednesday,I was in the middle of meeting when somebody from HR called my hp.

"Hello, Nur Sakinah..congratulations bla..bla..u've been offered...bla..bla..position @ Innovation Centre R&D...blaa...bla...but u need to get approval from ur current boss..blaa..blaa.."

I was stunt, Owh, I got the job? I almost forgot about the application, about the interview..i never thought about it much pun..(and tidak menaruh harapan tinggi walaupun jauh di sudut hati dapat merasakan yg interviewer tu mcm impressed tgk aku,haha)

Suddenly i got the good news. At that moment, i was emotionless..xde la rasa happy giler..and xde pulak rasa excited mcm nak terbang kejadah semua..sbb tgh meeting kan..kepala tgh pikir byk pasal operational matters jer. tapi bila dah continue meeting, rasa cam xleh focus plak.
macmana ni? nk accept ke? nak blah ke? mcmana dgn boss? will they let me go easily?(cheh perasan la pulak, mcm la aku nih valuable sgt utk company nihs..huhu)

lepas hbis meeting, kepala hotak berputar ligat balik. I keep on thinking and thinking about it. Part of me saying, i should take the offer. The other part says..i shouldnt be selfish to leave the company in this critical situation.

When i go deeper, i start to find the final answer. Yes, i want to go. Peluang x selalu dtg bergolek. Can u imagine, this is the first interview i attended after nearly 7 years of working, and i was very2 lucky that i actually got it? And ive been working in the same environment all this while, dgn penuh kesetiaan dan kededikasian (erk, bahasa mana aku amik nih),so x salah kan kalau nk tukar angin?

Tapi, masalah terbesar sekarang ialah approval/release from my current boss. disebabkan ini melibatkan internal transfer..so, boss kena release dulu baru diorg akan bg offer letter. Camno nak buek nihs? Pagi tadi dah jupe boss 2nd, her answer is simple...
"for me, i will say NO..simply because...bla..bla..u org lama..bla..bla..we need u..bla..bla.." (xde la simple mana sbb she's from melaka,so org melaka kalau dah start ckp susah nk berenti..ops..hehe)

tu belum jupe boss lagi sorg..xtau la aper dia akn ckp pulak. Sbb he's just take over the company (coz our GM is retiring very2 soon)..so dia pun xde experience lama sgt dgn aku kan..so mungkin dia akan let go kot? xtau la..susah nk jangka..

so for now, this is still pending..i havent give any answer to the other party yet..mungkin isnin depan nk kena jupe boss lagi sorg kot..what ever happens pon, the decision is still in my hands..
i have the rights to decide whats the best for my future. As far as i concern, my hubby supports me in any ways..

so just wait and see lah yer apa yg akan berlaku nnt..dah malas nk menaip panjang2..

(huh,konon2 nk tulis fully in English..xtercapai dek akalku la pulak..malas nk pikir ayat, nak kena bukak dictionary plak lagi..tapi kena practice lebih ni..sbb my boss-to-be ialah minah saleh..huhu)

Monday blues..Not-in-a-good-mood

I didnt do much work today, im soo in the "malas" mood..the plant is not yet started, modification here and there, so i just get myself stucked in my office, surfing the net and looking for free web design that i can use for my new blog skin.(well i still not manage to find one design that really suit my taste)

the weather outside also not in a good mood, it's raining since afternoon until now..causing the room temperature drop tremendously, plus the full blast air-conditioning system..making us all freezing beneath our blazers/jacket..

Im also not in a mood to cook for dinner tonite. On the way back home, there is a pasar malam near my house, so i will drop by to buy some food for us (me,hubby and Afni)..easy..dont have to crack my head down on menu i have to cook tonite..lucky me,my husband is not one choosy type..he will eat anything&everything i prepared for him (prepared in the sense of either i cooked or i bought, doesnt matter)

So, its almost 5 o'clock now..i better get going..the road is all wet and i need to drive slowly to reach home safely..

See ya