Tuesday, November 24, 2009

rajuk

"Gugur ranting ke bumi
tanda rapuh percintaan..
rajuk yang tak mudah diubati lagi
luka yang x sudah,tinggal parut yang berdarah.."

Huhuhu...mmg rasa nk merajuk jer dgn hubby jap tadi, org dah plan baik punya..
pagi2 tadi dah tinggal Afni kat umah atuk, dgn ateh,makmuk and maksu dia..
so that ptg ni balik keje leh gi jln2 bedua dgn ayah..gi tgk movie ker..lama giler x tgk movie dgn ayah,last ntah biler pun dah x ingat..

so plan dah baik, tapi x bgtau dia awal2..survey ticket, available..so try la calling hubby, x dpt..
aiseh, camne nk dpt confirmation nihs

try call lagi 3,4 kali baru dpt. so dgn hati riang gumbiranya terus la ckp plan menarik tadi tuh..ingat kan dia teruja sekali, rupanya...ado!

"hbis Afni camner..sian dia tinggal lama2 kat umah nenek.."-HUBBY

"alar, bukan selalu..lagipun movie start kol 8.30, sejam lebih hbis la, kol 10.00 dah bleh balik.."-ME

"alar..lainkali eh..sian plak kat makcik2 dia nk jaga dia lama2.."-HUBBY

huh, alasan lagi. dlm hati aku dah mula nk membebel..lenkali biler? nnt lenkali pun bg alasan yg sama..dulu masa boipren gelpren bleh plak anytime,huh!

"xnak pegi xpelah....ok bye...."-ME

tapi x hang up pun, saja gertak..lama senyap, mmg saja senyap lama2. dia panggil pun buat2 xdgr,buat2 xnyahut.

lastly

"okla..okla..kita pegi.."-HUBBY

yes!


Saturday, November 21, 2009

untitled

Hmm..

I just read few of my friends' blogs. They are really talented story-teller..How come they get ideas on what to write huh? Some of them updates their blog DAILY..and their stories are so IMPRESSIVE. They can tell stories about almost everything, from their daily routine, their feelings of the day, their toughts about some issues, and blaa...bla..bla..no matter what are the circumstances, they will continue writing.

As for me...humm..rasa di hati mmg nk tulis byk2, tapi masa xde..kalau ader masa pun..idea yg xde..so camne?

Tadi baru lepas curi2 baca blog kawan kepada kawan..sgt kagum membaca kisah dia sbg seorg isteri dan ibu kepada 2 org anak lelaki. Dah la weekends wifey..hubby keje jauh, so weekend je baru balik, so sepanjang weekdays dia yg menguruskan keperluan diri dan anak2nya yg berdua itu. Dgn keje lagi, pastu xde maid, nk kena hanta anak gi nurseri,pastu gi keje,pastu balik nk kena amik anak lagi..and so on..hmm terpikir jugak kalu aku kat tempat dia, can i survive?

Selama ni aku terlalu bergantung kpd hubby..wpun aku bekerja, boleh drive sendiri, tapi kalu anak demam aku tetap nk tunggu hubby aku jugak,so gi bwk anak klinik sama2..sbb rasa mcm sedih nyer bwk anak sorg2 gi klinik..lagi2 dlm keadaan emosi agak x menentu skang..lagi la x sanggup..so, kisah si ibu tadi boleh aku jadikan pengajaran la..jadi seorag mommy nih mmg kena tough..kena sabar..kena blaja independant jgn nk harap hubby je 24 jam. Kalu dpt hubby yg mmg caring alhamdulillah..tapi manusia mana ada yg sempurna kan? x sume pompuan dlm dunia ni yg bertuah dpt suami yg sgt ringan tgn utk menolong wife dia dan sgt prihatin terhadap kebajikan anak bini. Tapi alhamdulillah la, wpun hubby aku x perfect, tapi dia tetap yg terbaik utk aku skang ni..kalu anak demam dia x penah fail utk tolong aku jaga anak, bwk gi klinik,pastu layan plak karenah aku yg ntah haper2 skang nih..huhu

pastu baca plak blog seorg lagi ni..rasa mcm baca fairy tale plak..semua perfect dlm kehidupan dia..anak org kaya, kawin pun dgn anak org kaya..dikurniakan seorg anak yg comel dan cerdas..rumah besar..ader kerjaya yg bagus..suami pun kerja bagus..bleh melancong ke oversea anytime yg dia nak..semua benda yg tersarung kat bdn dia sumer branded things..semua yg dia cerita dlm blog dia happy2 belaka..indah2 belaka..sampai aku baca pun mcm terbuai2..alhamdulillah, dah rezeki dia kan..dlm hati tu ader la jugak terdetik "alahaii bertuahnya dia.." and ader la rasa jeles sket..tapi kita sepatutnya bersyukur dgn apa yg kita ada skang ni..mungkin itu dah mmg lifestyle dia, and mungkin itu mmg cara dia ceritakan yg best2 belaka dlm hidup dia..yelah ada org x suka cerita benda2 xbest kat public, biar dia simpan sendiri jer.

Tapi ader jugak jenis org yg cerita hebat2 belaka pasal diri dia dgn niat untuk menunjuk2..bukan niat nk mengata tapi realitinya mmg wujud org yg mcm ni..astaghfirullahalazim..siapalah aku utk judge org..aku sendiri pun insan yg langsung x sempurna serba serbinya..tapi utk org mcm aku, xde benda pun yg aku nk menunjuk..aku bukan anak org kaya pun..and aku bukan kawen dgn anak org kaya..hidup aku dr dulu sampai skang sederhana..tapi alhamdulillah semakin baik, dan aku bersyukur sekurang2 nya aku mempunyai keluarga yg sempurna kat mata aku,kerjaya yg baik, sesekali mmg ader badai melanda dlm kehidupan aku, tapi alhamdulillah setakat ni aku dpt mengharunginya dgn baik..

Hmm..sudah keputusan idea utk menulis wpun rasa mcm byk nk tulis kat sini.

xpelah, maybe next entry

daa..

Saturday, November 14, 2009

25 random things about me (taken from my FB)

1. My full name is NUR SAKINAH BT RAMLI. My family called me Kak Ina, most of my friends call me Keen, some call me Ikin (not E-kin mawi ok..?), some call me Sakinah, some call me Puan, some call me “TOL”, hubby used to call me “sayang”, but after I gave birth to our first daughter he called me “mama”..huhu..

2. I was born on 8th July 1980, one day after my parents celebrated their 1st wedding anniversary. ( I consider my self as most precious gift my mother gave to my dad for their anniversary.. tee hee hee..)

3. I used to be Pelajar Contoh when I was in secondary school. Just imagine, I was Penolong Ketua Pengawas, Ketua Kelas, School Netball Player, Nasyid Solo Singer, Lead role in Cinderella Theater Play, I sang, I danced, I joined most of activities at school, always get number 1 in my class (both sek rendah and sek agama) and at the same time I scored 4A’s in my UPSR. Huhu, gila kuasa betul aku dulu..

4. I was in the same class with Asmawi Awang when we were in Standard 5, 6 and form 5. But we never talked to each other during that time. He claimed me ‘sombong’, and vice versa. (padahal kat maktab dulu aku mmg sgt jarang2 berckp dgn lelaki..almaklum bekas pelajar sek agama, kunun..huhu)

5. I love singing very much. I used to enter singing competition during school days, uni days and the highest achievement when I won 2nd place in karaoke competition during Bioganic Family Day 2003. But now, I don’t sing in public anymore.. hubby x suke..

6. I won “Queen of the Night” title 3 times. First during Jamuan Blok M23 KTDI, second during UTM Theatre Club Dinner and lastly during Jomalina Annual Dinner ( im not saying that im the prettiest of all, but normally I will try my best to find a dress that match the theme of night ;-P)

7. I met my hubby at my workplace. I admire him so much, that he could settle almost all problems at our prod plant previously. I first talked to him when we were sent by our boss to attend Wilden Pump Seminar at Sunway Lagoon Resorts in 2003.

8. I’m not sure about my favorite color, but one thing for sure I will not choose BLUE as my favorite one. I prefer BLACK ink rather than BLUE ink for my parker pen.


9. I used to bully my sisters and brothers during our childhood days. I’m the eldest, so what? (pernah patahkan gigi depa, pernah pau duit belanja skolah depa, pernah tipu depa ckp bukan anak kandung mak..huhu..)


10. When I was single, I have a shoe rack at the back of my car. At home, I have 2 racks full of fancy shoes. I don’t know when actually I got the chance to wear them, because I worked in production plant, and most of the time I have to wear SAFETY BOOTS..hehe

11. I changed my eye color every month. Yes, I’m a big fan of contact lenses since 1998 (1st year in Uni). My fav color : Chestnut Brown & Hazel . For low profile, I will go for colorless. I prefer contact lenses because I cant stand having something on my nose for the whole day. Rimas dan terbatas.

12. FYI, im wearing colored lenses not for cosmetic purpose only. It’s a corrective action too, since my eyeballs have different size, resulting different power (R- 4.25, L- 2.75)

13. My first big crush when I was in from 5. Fullstop.

14. I got my driving license in 2003. My first car was kancil putih auto 850 second hand.

15. I used to collect choc wrapper and put them under my table plastic cover for deco when I was in form 5. One day I found a note saying how much money I’ve been wasting on chocolate. He even calculated the real figure just to let me know the facts. (aku rasa yg buat tu klasmet aku form 5-wan mohd syahrul ikmal)

16. My favorite make-up kit is mascara.

17. I can float, but I dunno how to swim. Uwaaa….

18. I prefer large handbags (tote bag). I can dump anything I want into it. Things inside my handbags are : purse, bank book, camera, compact powder, lip gloss, hand lotion, USB drive, miniature perfume, a pen, name card, afni’s medical record, sometimes afni’s diapers, bottle, baby wipes..haha

19. I married and gave birth to my first baby in the same year – 2007.

20. I used to “mogok lapar” with my parents because they forced me to accept an offer for Petronas Scholarship and pursue Chemical Engineering at UTP, Perak. I refused because I wanted to go to UTM.

21. I never went to any job interview before. I worked with Golden Hope because I was their scholar. After the biggest merge, ive become Sime Darby employee automatically.

22. My must-buy-magazines every months are Impiana, Anjung Seri, Nona, Wanita & Jelita.

23. I passed out more than 3 times at workplace. Been admitted to Tawakal Hospital for 2 days. (Doc diagnosed something wrong with my nerve bla bla..i don’t remember the details)

24. My favorite dessert as of now is Choc Banana Cake from Secret Recipe.

25. I live my life moderately, never bought really expensive things, never drive flashy car, never went to overseas for vacation, never wear branded things, but at least I married to somebody without title but with good job to provide me with my living needs – a house with spacious space for me and my kids, a local car and most importantly he gave me a family to love and depends for..wallah..

My First Born

Here you go moms - a different kind of survey for a change - it's all about your first born! Just copy and paste it in a new note for yourself!- jj tagged me

Let's see how much you remember!

1. WAS YOUR FIRST PREGNANCY PLANNED?
unplanned, org kata 1st baby xelok plan

2. WERE YOU MARRIED AT THE TIME?
eh mestilah

3. WHAT WERE YOUR REACTIONS?
elleh, x terkejut pun..dah agak dah sangkut punya..

4. HOW OLD WERE YOU?
27 tahun

5. HOW DID YOU FIND OUT YOU WERE PREGNANT?
kat tandas umah sewa, guna pregnncy test kit beli kat farmasi.

6. WHO DID YOU TELL FIRST?
mestilah hubby, ingatkan dia nk melompat ke apa ke, tapi dia relax jer..control macho la tuh

7. DID YOU WANT TO FIND OUT THE SEX?
yes, senang nk beli barang baby

8. DUE DATE?
suppose to be 1st Jan 2008,

9. WHEN WAS YOUR CHILD ACTUALLY BORN?
21st December 2007, 6.23 am

10. HOW MUCH DID YOUR CHILD WEIGH?
2.87 kg

11. DID YOU HAVE MORNING SICKNESS?
Nope, i only experience afternoon sickness only..hehe

12. WHAT DID YOU CRAVE?
huii..mcm2..antaranya DUNKIN DONUTS, KUIH SERI MUKA..pastuh mkn nk yg western2 jer

13. WHO/WHAT IRRITATED YOU THE MOST?
hmm..x ingat la pulak, mcm xde jer

14. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CHILD'S SEX?
Girl

15. DID YOU WISH YOU HAD THE OPPOSITE SEX OF WHAT YOU WERE GETTING?
nope, saya terima ketentuan Allah dgn rasa syukur, cewah

16. HOW MANY POUNDS DID YOU GAIN THROUGHOUT THE PREGNANCY?
hmm..before 45kg, 9 months preggy jadi 62 kg. kiralah sendiri

17. DID YOU HAVE A BABY SHOWER?
isk, baby kecik lagi nk bg mandi shower ;-P.xde buat pun

18. WAS IT A SURPRISE OR DID YOU KNOW?
xde baby2 shower nyer..(err..sbnrnya baby shower tu kira lenggang perut kan? xde..xde)

19. DID YOU HAVE ANY COMPLICATIONS DURING YOUR PREGNANCY?
Alhamdulillah semua OK

20. WHERE DID YOU GIVE BIRTH?
Subang Jaya Medical Center (Now Sime Darby Medical Centre)

21. HOW MANY HOURS WERE YOU IN LABOR?
masuk kol 2 pagi, start sakit kol 2.30, baby lahir kol 6.23 pagi..lama gak

22. WHO DROVE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL?
hubby drove, accompanied by my sister cum the babysitter-to-be

23. WHO WATCHED YOU GIVE BIRTH?
mula2 ada hubby dgn midwife jer, bila dah xlarat push baru dr siti masuk

24. WAS IT NATURAL OR C-SECTION?
natural beb, baru rasa

25. DID YOU TAKE MEDICINE TO EASE THE PAIN?
u mean epidural? nope, rasa mcm bleh tahan lagi walaupun sakit gilerrrrrr...

26. WHAT DID YOU NAME HIM/HER?
AFNI SAFIYYAH BT NOR AZRI

27. HOW OLD IS YOUR FIRST BORN TODAY?
1 Year 11 months

How well do i know my husband?

1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
FOOTBALL, ESPECIALLY WHEN HIS FAVOURITE TEAM IN THE MATCH (MU LA APA LAGI) OR ANY MOVIES IN HBO/CINEMAX/STAR MOVIES CHANNEL

2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
HE PREFERS ULAM ACTUALLY, BUT WHENEVER HE EATS SALAD, HE WILL GO FOR MAYONAISE+THOUSAND ISLAND+TARTAR SOS ON HIS SALAD

3. What's one food he doesn't like?
HMM..HOW TO ANSWER THIS AA..CAN I SAY MY HUBBY "TOLAK KAYU+BATU PUNYA TYPE"?

4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?
FOR BFAST HE WILL ORDER TEH O NIPIS OR NESCAFE O PANAS FOR LUNCH OR DINNER HE WILL ORDER TEH O AIS

5. Where did he go to high school?
SEK MEN VOKASIONAL SHAH ALAM (NOW SEK MEN TEKNIK SHAH ALAM)

6. What size shoe does he wear?
HUHU, MY HUBBY SO COMEL..HE WEAR SIZE 6 OR 7..

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
COMPLETE SET OF TOOLS, CONSIST OF ALL SIZE SPANNER,SCREW DRIVERS, BLA..BLA.. OR FISHING ROD?

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
HEHE,HIS ALL TIME FAVOURITE: EGG-SANDWICH MADE BY HER WIFE

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?
HMM..KARI IKAN BAGUK?

10. What is his favorite cereal?
HMM..KOKO CRUNCH?

11. What would he never wear (AGAIN)?
I ASKED HIM THIS QUESTION AND HE ANSWERED " BAJU KAHWIN, SBB KALAU BOLEH NK KAWIN SEKALI JER SEUMUR HIDUP" HUHU......

12. What is his favorite sports team?
USED TO BE LIVERPOOL, NOW MAN U

13. Who did he vote for?
SAME WITH ME, "BULAN". HEHE

14. Who is his best friend?
ME? AND HIS DAUGHTER..HEHE..

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
HMM..SINGING IN THE PUBLIC. HE FEELS UNEASY WHEN I GOT TOO MUCH ATTENTION FROM OTHER PEOPLE.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

true story behind the dilemma

Last Wednesday,I was in the middle of meeting when somebody from HR called my hp.

"Hello, Nur Sakinah..congratulations bla..bla..u've been offered...bla..bla..position @ Innovation Centre R&D...blaa...bla...but u need to get approval from ur current boss..blaa..blaa.."

I was stunt, Owh, I got the job? I almost forgot about the application, about the interview..i never thought about it much pun..(and tidak menaruh harapan tinggi walaupun jauh di sudut hati dapat merasakan yg interviewer tu mcm impressed tgk aku,haha)

Suddenly i got the good news. At that moment, i was emotionless..xde la rasa happy giler..and xde pulak rasa excited mcm nak terbang kejadah semua..sbb tgh meeting kan..kepala tgh pikir byk pasal operational matters jer. tapi bila dah continue meeting, rasa cam xleh focus plak.
macmana ni? nk accept ke? nak blah ke? mcmana dgn boss? will they let me go easily?(cheh perasan la pulak, mcm la aku nih valuable sgt utk company nihs..huhu)

lepas hbis meeting, kepala hotak berputar ligat balik. I keep on thinking and thinking about it. Part of me saying, i should take the offer. The other part says..i shouldnt be selfish to leave the company in this critical situation.

When i go deeper, i start to find the final answer. Yes, i want to go. Peluang x selalu dtg bergolek. Can u imagine, this is the first interview i attended after nearly 7 years of working, and i was very2 lucky that i actually got it? And ive been working in the same environment all this while, dgn penuh kesetiaan dan kededikasian (erk, bahasa mana aku amik nih),so x salah kan kalau nk tukar angin?

Tapi, masalah terbesar sekarang ialah approval/release from my current boss. disebabkan ini melibatkan internal transfer..so, boss kena release dulu baru diorg akan bg offer letter. Camno nak buek nihs? Pagi tadi dah jupe boss 2nd, her answer is simple...
"for me, i will say NO..simply because...bla..bla..u org lama..bla..bla..we need u..bla..bla.." (xde la simple mana sbb she's from melaka,so org melaka kalau dah start ckp susah nk berenti..ops..hehe)

tu belum jupe boss lagi sorg..xtau la aper dia akn ckp pulak. Sbb he's just take over the company (coz our GM is retiring very2 soon)..so dia pun xde experience lama sgt dgn aku kan..so mungkin dia akan let go kot? xtau la..susah nk jangka..

so for now, this is still pending..i havent give any answer to the other party yet..mungkin isnin depan nk kena jupe boss lagi sorg kot..what ever happens pon, the decision is still in my hands..
i have the rights to decide whats the best for my future. As far as i concern, my hubby supports me in any ways..

so just wait and see lah yer apa yg akan berlaku nnt..dah malas nk menaip panjang2..

(huh,konon2 nk tulis fully in English..xtercapai dek akalku la pulak..malas nk pikir ayat, nak kena bukak dictionary plak lagi..tapi kena practice lebih ni..sbb my boss-to-be ialah minah saleh..huhu)

Monday, November 9, 2009

Monday blues..Not-in-a-good-mood

I didnt do much work today, im soo in the "malas" mood..the plant is not yet started, modification here and there, so i just get myself stucked in my office, surfing the net and looking for free web design that i can use for my new blog skin.(well i still not manage to find one design that really suit my taste)

the weather outside also not in a good mood, it's raining since afternoon until now..causing the room temperature drop tremendously, plus the full blast air-conditioning system..making us all freezing beneath our blazers/jacket..

Im also not in a mood to cook for dinner tonite. On the way back home, there is a pasar malam near my house, so i will drop by to buy some food for us (me,hubby and Afni)..easy..dont have to crack my head down on menu i have to cook tonite..lucky me,my husband is not one choosy type..he will eat anything&everything i prepared for him (prepared in the sense of either i cooked or i bought, doesnt matter)

So, its almost 5 o'clock now..i better get going..the road is all wet and i need to drive slowly to reach home safely..

See ya

Hello

This is my 2nd trial of blogging. Since i had installed streamyx broadband at home, so i think i will have more time to blog.

Therefore, i was thinking to start fresh-with something new. With new blog design,new way of throwing my thoughts/ideas/ everything..

To start with, i will delete my previous blog. (am not sure if i ever can do that)

I do not wish that this new blog will gather any followers, i just need a place to write down everything i ever think of,to note down every incident happen in my life..and i'm thinking to use this blog to improve my English writing..i will try my very best to write in English, but sometimes i will use "bahasa rojak" too..depends on situation.

So, until next entry. Daa..